In my head!
There are two major topics floating around in my head for the moment: covenant and kingdom.
Rumor has that Mike Breen has said, to understand the bible you must understant the concept of covenant and kingdom. I am on my way to agree with him, not yet there, but still.
Covenant is the deepest form of fellowship, meaning all mine is yours. I totaly and 100% identify with you. That is covenant. Still don´t get it. Look at marriage. That is a covenant. That is the level of fellowship God is calling us to and us to him.
Kingdom. And here is why we are in a mess: Jesus proclaimed the kingdom, and what came out was the church. Maybe we are stuck in church and not living in the kingdom? I sense that we miss this vital dimention in our lifes. The kingdom blows away our concept of church, blows away our concept of fellowship, who is inside and who is on the outside. It challenge us what it means to live as a christian every day.
I feel that Western christianity is often extremely egosentric. What do I get out of churh, what do I feel during worship. We have turned church into gazstations, we go there to our spiritual gaztank filled up.
Maybe the problem is that we never seek His kingdom first, only trying to build our owne.